As I scrubbed the dirt and grime off of my bathroom sink, I began to realize that a day like this cleans more than just the countertops and floor, but it also cleans out my heart.
Today, I was given the chance to reflect on all that happened with those precious children in my family, and realize that my time spent wondering why God gave me information that I couldn’t use served a purpose.Â In the days I spent crying out in frustration, I should have been crying out my thanks to the Lord for what I can do.
- I can manage a Sunday school room full of 17 two year olds with dirty diapers and runny noses.Â I learned to appreciate the almost 4 year olds I usually have in my class.
- I can have patience and grace with Monkey when she spills cereal all over the floor, even though IÂ am in the middle of bathing the dog and cleaning his poopy kennel for the second time.
- I can be generous, even when money is tight.
- I can fold 5 loads of laundry, and have it look like I haven’t done anything all day.
- Most importantly, I can be wrong, but God never is.
The last one I thought I already knew, but as it turns out all of my questioning is proof that I didn’t.Â So, as I wipe the mirror clean and I see myself, still in my pj’s with my hair standing about three inches higher than it should, I wonder how long I have been seeing a dirty version of my life.Â How many friends have I blown off due to my own insecurity?Â How many laughs have I not laughed because I didn’t want to give in when I was mad?Â Exactly how much have I missed?
So, starting today I am cleaning out the cobwebs.Â I am knocking them down from every corner of my heart, and I am blowing the dust off of every nook and cranny.Â I am starting over, fresh, clean and focused.Â Focused on my friends.Â Focused on my family.Â Most of all, focused on my faith.