I was chatting with a friend the other day, and in the middle of talking to her I started thinking about how lately it seems a mystery to me as to what my purpose is.  Obviously, I was not being a very good listener at that point, but that’s besides the point.

When all is said an done, how many of us know our true purpose for being on this earth? 

There was a point in my life when I was confident my purpose was to raise my wee-ones and live happily ever after.  And I am still relatively sure the babies aren’t going anywhere, so they are still in my plan.  The happily ever after is also hopefully written in the fine print.  Perhaps the question I have isn’t what my purpose is, as much as why did God create me the way that I am to fulfill that purpose?

I have to say, there’s a fair amount about me that is pretty average joe.  In fact, it seems sometimes as though I was created from a hodge-podge of various things, and because of this there is not one thing that I am hands down the ‘best’ at.  So why was I chosen for these special little lives? Don’t they deserve the best?  As I am wiping baby butts and cleaning up dog accidents, I can’t help but wonder if I should be making an effort to do more.  And how do I get to the point where I can handle more?  Because right now, I’m at about max capacity.

My prayer this week has been for me to start to see what God sees in me.  To have the confidence that He obviously has in me.  I know God doesn’t call those who are equipped, but equips those who are called. I would appreciate if you could join me in that sentiment.

But even with that knowledge, I am left wondering why me?  And I am the only one who ever wonders?  Do all of you confident people out there just know what it is that you are here for?   How did you figure that out?  And does knowing make you complacent?

Why do I have so many questions today?  Is that annoying?  Is it annoying that I just asked if it was annoying?  Did you know I had to spell check equipped because it looks weird to me?

Off to ponder and wipe some more bottoms.

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