I was chatting with a friend the other day, and in the middle of talking to her I started thinking about how lately it seems a mystery to me as to what my purpose is. Obviously, I was not being a very good listener at that point, but that’s besides the point.
When all is said an done, how many of us know our true purpose for being on this earth?Â
There was a point in my life when I was confident my purpose was to raise my wee-ones and live happily ever after. And I am still relatively sure the babies aren’t going anywhere, so they are still in my plan. The happily ever after is also hopefully written in the fine print. Perhaps the question I have isn’t what my purpose is, as much as why did God create me the way that I am to fulfill that purpose?
I have to say, there’s a fair amount about me that is pretty average joe. In fact, it seems sometimes as though I was created from a hodge-podge of various things, and because of this there is not one thing that I am hands down the ‘best’ at. So why was I chosen for these special little lives? Don’t they deserve the best? As I am wiping baby butts and cleaning up dog accidents, I can’t help but wonder if I should be making an effort to do more. And how do I get to the point where I can handle more? Because right now, I’m at about max capacity.
My prayer this week has been for me to start to see what God sees in me. To have the confidence that He obviously has in me. I know God doesn’t call those who are equipped, but equips those who are called. I would appreciate if you could join me in that sentiment.
But even with that knowledge, I am left wondering why me? And I am the only one who ever wonders? Do all of you confident people out there just know what it is that you are here for?  How did you figure that out? And does knowing make you complacent?
Why do I have so many questions today? Is that annoying? Is it annoying that I just asked if it was annoying? Did you know I had to spell check equipped because it looks weird to me?
Off to ponder and wipe some more bottoms.
A
I think questions are good. And despite what you may think, there is nothing about you that is ‘average Joe’. Your children deserve the best. They have the best. If you are going to ‘do more’ of something, you are going to need to ‘do less’ of something else. Just remember that whatever you are doing, it is for the glory of God. He smiles upon you during every diaper change and carpet cleaning.
I love you.
T
I totally agree with Travis. You are far from average Joe. You are blessed with many wonderful gifts, not just one. I think questions are good, keeps us from becoming complacent 😉 Right now diaper changes and being a good mom is what you are meant to do. Just you being you is giving your kids the very best. I often wonder what God has planned for me once Cam starts school and I look to go back to work. I’m just praying for guidance and trusting that when the time is right He will make sure I know with confidence what that plan is and will give me everything I need to accomplish it. There are many people who just know what they are meant to do, I’m not one of them. I have no clue but I’m really excited to find out 🙂 I’m also excited to see what the future holds for you, my dear friend…
I agree with Travis. You are not ‘average Joe’. And you know as well as many of us do that it takes more than your ‘average Joe’ to dedicate your day to cleaning diapers and carpets. I believe that God gives some people one talent that they share with the world to their fullest capability. For example, I take my husband. From day one he has known what he has wanted to be/do and he is doing it and every day puts forth his best effort. For others, we may go through stages where our talents shine for the moment that they are needed. This is where I think you and I might fit in. Earlier in our lives it was career focused and now it is family focused. In time there might be some shifts to other talents we posess… each building on the other.
You are a fantastic mother, wife and friend. (Though most of our bonding has been via computer, I can see it in all you post.)
Nothing wrong with questioning…makes you normal, or your ‘average Joe’ some might say. Keeps your mind active and your heart and soul ‘gut-checking’ your personal happiness. Which we know is important, right? Happy Mommy = Happy Everyone!!
Continue to follow your heart and the Lord and you’ll find your way each time.