Perhaps it’s because I have Hashi’s.

Perhaps it’s because I married an old soul.

Perhaps it’s because we are just enamored by our kids.

I’m not exactly sure the specific reason why, but for some reason Daddy and I have become totally consumed by our own lives and the people in it who mean so very much to us.  Perhaps it’s a crazy combo of factors that got us to the point where we are today.  I don’t want to say that we can’t see outside of our own four walls, and I would hope that those of you who know us best can feel our desire to serve others in many things that we do.  I pray almost daily that God will use me in others lives to bless them in a way they didn’t even know they needed blessing.

We don’t want to be the people who go to church and write a check every week and call it done.  I’m not interested in putting on my Sunday best for the Jones’, only to come home and yell at my kids while my husband sleeps on the couch.  We want to really live up to what God has planned for our lives.

What I’m beginning to see is to the outside world, that’s perceived as selfish.  To have such an intense focus on raising my babies to the best of my ability can appear snobby or rude to those on the outside looking in.

That certainly isn’t my intent, but on the other hand, I’m not sure I have enough hours in my day to worry about what other people may or may not be thinking.   But, it does make me wonder if we’ve missed the mark somewhere.  I absolutely love my life.  I love my family.  I love the friends that have become my family.  In many ways you are much more than blood or a marriage certificate can provide.  My desire is to nurture those relationships as much as possible, and sadly that doesn’t leave much time for anything else.  That’s just the reality of the situation.

However, at the end of the day, the judgment from others remains.  Which makes me second guess it all.  Could they be correct?  Is the better way to live to only include surface level relationships with many?  I can certainly see how on some level, there is something to be said for quantity over quality.  It hasn’t worked for me before, but that certainly doesn’t mean I couldn’t try again if that’s what God wants for me.

I’d love to hear your thoughts about relationships and what you guys do to make them work.  I’d also love to hear your family’s ‘game plan’ when it comes to how you live your lives.

Many blessings, my friends.  I love you all.