I am sure most of you know by now, but for those of you who don’t let me tell you, I am a terrible waiter. I don’t like to wait for answers, I ruin surprises at Christmas, and I just really do not like the unknown. Truth be told, Monkey is more patient than I am, and she’s three (in five days)!
Of course God knows this too, so wouldn’t you know it? He’s asking me to patiently wait.
I haven’t been feeling all that well lately, and I missed my period (sorry if that’s too much info for my male readers LOL). I finally talked myself into going to the doctor yesterday. As I mentioned before I really didn’t care too much for the OB I was seeing before, but she’s covered under our insurance. I really wanted a comprehensive check, so I decided to suck it up and pay out of pocket for the OB who delivered Monkey.
I went and he explained there were several things that can cause a delay in my cycle so he wanted to do complete blood work and an ultrasound just to see what was going on. After the ultrasound it was determined my uterus has a very thick lining. This means one of two things: Either my body “stopped” somewhere along the line after my miscarriage and the lining was not shed, or we’re pregnant. He could not tell from the ultrasound because if we are pregnant, the sac and baby would not yet be visible.
If it’s the first I will need to have a D&C. I am pretty scared about this for several reasons, but I am mostly sad because this means I will have to wait even longer to try for our number two. This would also confuse me even more because I had a period in January! For those of you who didn’t pay attention in 7th grade sex ed (or you are too old to remember – like me!), a womans period is when the lining of the uterus is shed. He also mentioned if I just let it go, eventually the lining would close off my uterus completely and I would become infertile. Thank you God for convincing me to go to the doctor!
The tiredness could also be a sign my thyroid pills need to be adjusted. That’s never fun because the appropriate dosage is pretty much a guessing game until they get it locked in, all the while I am feeling “off”.
I am thinking this is what will happen, but still praying for a miracle. I don’t feel pregnant at all (other than how tired I am) and the urine tests came back negative. If the blood work confirms a pregnancy, I will be high risk and it is likely I will need hormone shots in order to carry to full term.
I tried to find more information on line, but there just isn’t more to find at this point. There are just too many considerations to be made in order to make a definite determination.
Everything should be back in about a week, and I will keep everyone posted, but in the mean time, God just has us waiting.
A few clarifications:
First…I was the one that talked you into going to the doctor. Second…you have more patience than you give yourself credit for. You are married to me, after all. That is a miracle all by itself!
Third…this is WAY too graphic for my eyes.
Love you.
Love the new look, Chica! Great colors too. 😉
I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I’m always astounded by your grace in such strenuous situations. I can totally relate to your pain, b/c as you know, I was just there a little less than a year ago. I would never wish that my friends would go through the same hardhip I suffered. I am praying for your heart as you wind your way, once again, through God’s will and am hoping for the best for you and Trav. We love you guys so much!
Remember, I am here for you if you ever need to talk or just need a shoulder to drop your tears upon. Love you, Sis in Christ.
Trav,
God may have used you, but the message came from Him. 🙂
Nina,
My sweet Nina. Thank you for your kind words. We love you guys so much and are so excited for Amanda to be here soon!
A
Hi Angela!
I’ll be lifting you up in prayer!
Velvia
Velvia,
Thank you so much. We are prepared to deal with whatever God feels we can handle. Your prayers have been a blessing and mean a great deal to us!
A