Every year, around this time, I make a point of slowing down in an effort to really take in God in motion.

This time of year tends to give me hope and promise of a new beginning because everything is in a stage of rebirth around me.

Typically, with Lupus, this time of year is rough. I’m not exactly sure what causes the shift in our bodies, but fellow Lupies seem to report the same thing I feel in spring: it’s often an uphill battle.

However, aside from a few down days, this year has proved to be better.

I’m not going to lie – when I’m down, I’m down. Sometimes it’s one day, sometimes it’s five.

But … I’m now down 18lbs since April 1st, and I just feel better overall. I feel more in control of my body.

I am realizing I do have a say in how I feel. I haven’t had that kind of control in a long, long time.

I can feel God doing new things in my life.

My garden is starting to thrive.

So am I.